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Name: Kelsey
Interests: The word Ishi is used in Hosea 2:16 16"It will come about in that day," declares the LORD, "That you will call Me Ishi - And will no longer call Me Baali. This passage (Hosea 2) is portraying a whore, a harlot. A woman that runs around on her husband and seeks pleasure in things other than him. Her husbands love is so great, that he pursues her. He takes everything away from her - so that she realizes he is all that she needs and that life and love with him is far better than the meaningless trivialities she was pursuing. That is me.... I was a whore, pursuing other things than Christ. HE saved me from harlotry - and now I know that life with HIM is far better than anything else I could pursue in this world. It is by far the greatest love story ever told - and I am a part of it. God loved me while I was still a whore and pursued me. Now I know that HIS love is all I need - and I am madly in love with HIM, my "Ishi", my "husband".
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| Well, I forgot about the world of xanga but tonight I had a flashback and decided to revisit the past. The real past would be whatever I had before xanga, but I can't even remember! Ha, those would be fun entries to go back and read! I think it was livejournal, which had to be one of the first blogs ever invented. Just so you know, it took some research - but I found my old livejournal. How fun!
Anyways, here I am. Whew, this journal might be a crazy one as I don't do it often enough these days. This year has been not terrible, but not great. In the light of being near God, um - terrible. As far as life goes, pretty good. BUT when you are far from God, everything else just is stuff, ya know?
Father, You will give us more than we can handle so we can be overwhelmed and run into Your arms. I feel I am on overload mode. Man, there are so many things I need to be doing, so much that needs to happen in my life, so many things that need to be changed - I am just overwhelmed by it all.
Why do I think that if I see You that all of a sudden I will just follow wholeheartedly? That's so not true. The Isrealites saw You in ways I will never even dream of seeing You, yet they still fell away. What is it then that brings us close to You? I know it's You that brings us close to You, You that opens our eyes. (Phil 2:13)
Lord God, all I can is pray that You help me. That You open my eyes. Open my eyes and my heart to desire You above all else. Open my eyes and my heart to see You in Your beauty and not turn away. Open my eyes that I might behold wonderful things from Your law.
Lord, You are a faithful God. And I know that if I want on You, You will come through. So I choose to wait. I choose to put myself in paths where I know You like to be and wait for You to move.
Lord, I love You and I need You. Please help me!
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| Comfort. How elusive it is. I found my old xanga site a couple days ago. I had forgotten I even had it! Reading back through it I came to a realization that ever since God gave me the strength to begin to truly lay my life down for Him on a daily basis, life hasn't been easy. It's been full of tribulations and persecutions. Don't get me wrong, I have been more hopeful and alive in these past two years during the tribulations and persecutions than I ever was before... but it hasn't been an easy ride. As Christians why do we seek comfort of this world? Jesus left Heaven. I don't know about you, but that statement blows my mind. JESUS LEFT HEAVEN. He left Heaven for 33 years to come down to this Earth to die the most brutal death ever invented, for your sake and for my sake. He left the comfort of Heaven and readily chose the discomfort of this Earth and the Cross. Meditate on that for a second and then honestly ask yourself if we "deserve" the comfort on this Earth that we so often feel we are entitled to. He was persectued. If we are truly following Him, so will we be. Are you, am I, willing to lay down our comfort at His feet for the sake of His glory? He was willing to lay down His our sake. A quote from the Heavenly Man, a book I just recently finished reading. "Don't pray for the persecution to stop! We shouldn't pray for a lighter load to carry, but a stronger back to endure! Then the world will see that God is with us, empowering us to live in a way that reflects his love and power. This is true freedom!" Brother Yun | | |
| Am I really willing to count all things as loss for His namesake? I am afraid my honest answer to that question right now is no. The reason why? I don't have a view of His surpassing value the way that I ought. If I truly knew and saw Him for what He is, I would have NO problem giving up everything for His namesake. Father, please forgive me for my lack of desire for You. Forgive me for filling myself so full with the things of this world that I have no appetite for You. Please be merciful to me and help me to see You for what You truly are through the light of Your Word. Please help me to hunger and thirst for righteousness. I love you, though I don't deserve you, Merciful King. | | |
| This week I prayed a big prayer that God answered. I prayed for Him to make me uncomfortable. My prayer was inspired by a book I am reading right now called The Heavenly Man. It's about Brother Yun, a believer from China, whom the Lord is using in amazing ways. Through faith and God's strength he was able to fast from food or water for 74 days, escape authorities numerous times, and everywhere he went.... everywhere... people came to know Christ. The miracles of our Savior in this book are innumerable. The reason I prayed to be uncomfortable is that Brother Yun rarely experienced comfort. He went through persecution for Jesus, on a daily basis, beyond anything we could EVER imagine. In fact, I would go as far to say that the level of persecution Brother Yun went through (though it falls short, of course) is comparable to amount of suffering our Savior went through for us. But, the Lord sustained him through ALL of this. "I had experienced so much in those four years, but God had been faithful. I'd suffered some horrible tortures, but God had been faithful. I'd been dragged in front of judges and courts, but God had been faithful. I'd been hungry, thirsty, and had fainted from exhaustion, but God had been faithful. Through it all, God was always faithful and loving to me. He had never left me nor had He forsaken me. His grace was always sufficient and he provided for my every need. I didn't suffer for Jesus in prision. No! I was with Jesus and I experienced his very real presence, joy, and peace every day. It's not those in prision for the sake of the gospel who suffer. The person who suffers is he who never experiences God's intimate presence." Brother Yun I want to be uncomfortable and I want the Lord to sustain me through that. I want to His power to be manifested to all those around me and to myself because often my faith is so small. My week was filled with craziness. There wasn't a day that went by the way I expected. By a human standard, I had a bad week. By God's standards, it was amazing. I was able to experience His comfort and rejoice in Him sustaining me through the hard times in a way I never have been able to do before. Dear friends, I challenge you to pray to be uncomfortable. His strength will amaze you in your discomfort. It's a very worthwhile prayer. | | |
| I was listening to some John Piper earlier. He was talking about the two lies the devil uses to deceive us. 1) God is not good.
2) Sin is so much better. Piper commented that the devil isn't that super cunning, except in the use of these two lies. Since sin is such a struggle for us and since this is how satan tests and tempts us, I decided to ponder these two lies for both my edification and yours. I pray that this will help us both to be on alert against his attacks. 1)God is not good. Most of the time satan uses this lie is when we are going through a hard time in our lives. When Piper talked about this particular lie, my heart was broken because so often lately in this hard season of my life I have believed this lie. I have traded the God of the Universe, in whose presence there is fullness of joy and pleasures forevermore, for self-pity and belief that He can't possibly use ALL things for good. I thought that some things were just too hard and too bad for Him to use for His glory. Oh Father, forgive me and us all when we believe this lie. May we desire You and believe in Your worth, even when all the things around us point the opposite direction. May we have faith in You to overcome the enemy. 2)Sin is so much better. This lie is most prevalent when satan is tempting us with something. Thinking that we can't be content until we have that "something".... that boy, that grade, that Ipod. It's so easy to believe this lie, because the things of this world that we can obtain are so often tangible. We can touch them. Father, forgive and protect us from this lie. May we see that You are more beautiful than all and that we will use Your Word to combat both of these lies. So, how do we combat these lies? How do we defeat the enemy? BY HIS WORD. "Your Word I have hidden in my heart that I might not sin against You." Psalm 119:11
"... I write to you, young men, because you are strong, and the word of God abides in you, and you have overcome the evil one." 1 John 2:14 Father, may You assist us in hiding Your beautiful Word in our hearts so we may not sin against You. May You keep us alert to his attacks and Your beauty. | | |
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